Susanne Remic is a primary school teacher, freelance writer and parenting blogger. She writes at Ghostwritermummy and Maternity Matters and in between all of that she regularly wins mummy of the year awards for running around after her two children, aged six and 19 months. This is her pregnancy blog: an online diary of her third pregnancy as she strives to overcome two difficult births, one angel child and one awkward toddler. Join Susanne as she shares every step of her journey from bump to baby!
Happy Birthday
By Susanne Remic on 14 Dec 2011
My son turns two years old this week. It’s not just a birthday. It’s a marker on a long journey I have been forced to take.
Two years ago, my son was pulled from my sleeping body. He was blue and cold and bleeding. He was given a cold plastic tube down his throat and his first breaths were forced from his lungs with expertise. He was cleaned, and weighed, and checked and swaddled. He did all of this alone. My son truly was born alone.
There were no excited exclamations of ‘It’s a boy!’
There were no beaming smiles as he made his first cries into the air.
There were no cuddles against warm skin or tears of joy to see his face.
Two years ago, my son was handed to me, wrapped in a blue hospital blanket. I held him with dead arms and a dead heart and I tried my very best to look at him. I tried to see him, to see the boy he might be. I tried and tried and tried... and it worked.
My son is beautiful. My son is happy. My son is here.
Two years ago, I almost lost one of the most important people in my life. Two years ago, he made his mark on the world and has continued to do this ever since. Two years ago, I had just started to learn exactly how special this boy really was.
Two years ago was such a long time ago. Today we laugh, we cry and we love. Today, the pain of his birth still throbs, but is bearable. Today is all about now, not then. Today my son is two.
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