Susanne Remic is a primary school teacher, freelance writer and parenting blogger. She writes at Ghostwritermummy and Maternity Matters and in between all of that she regularly wins mummy of the year awards for running around after her two children, aged six and 19 months. This is her pregnancy blog: an online diary of her third pregnancy as she strives to overcome two difficult births, one angel child and one awkward toddler. Join Susanne as she shares every step of her journey from bump to baby!
Last night
By Susanne Remic on 02 Feb 2012
Last night I spent a little longer when it came to the bedtime bottle. I hesitated for a few moments more, just to feel the weight of his little body leaning against mine and to smooth down his silky soft hair. I held him that little bit closer as I took him up to bed and I spent that little bit longer smoothing down the covers as he leant back into his teddies.
I watched him for a moment longer than usual and I let my kiss hover a little bit longer. I know you can’t make time stand still this way, but you can make it more precious.
My son has only two weeks left as my baby. But he also has a lifetime, like his sister, to be my baby. It’s only me that is having a hard time accepting the change that is about to happen.
Will I remember that he always likes to have two biscuits from the tin - one for each hand - and that he prefers blackcurrant juice to orange squash? Will I have the time to make sure that he has enough colouring books and crayons each time we go out? Will I remember to pack dairy free treats when he goes to parties, so that he doesn’t miss out when the other kids have chocolate? Will I remember to teach him how to dress himself before I become too absorbed in other tasks?
Will I always be the mum he deserves?
These things I cannot know. But last night, I promised him. I leaned down to his ear and I whispered a promise that I know I will keep. And you know what he did? He looked at me with a huge smile on his beautiful face and he told me he loved me too.
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