Susanne Remic is a primary school teacher, freelance writer and parenting blogger. She writes at Ghostwritermummy and Maternity Matters and in between all of that she regularly wins mummy of the year awards for running around after her two children, aged six and 19 months. This is her pregnancy blog: an online diary of her third pregnancy as she strives to overcome two difficult births, one angel child and one awkward toddler. Join Susanne as she shares every step of her journey from bump to baby!
The 20-week scan
By Susanne Remic on 12 Oct 2011
This week we have our 20-week scan. This is the last chance to find out the gender of the baby, should we so desire to. This is the moment where, all being well with the baby, we will sit on our hands and stick to our decision to keep it all a surprise. I genuinely don’t want to find out this time, but as I already explained, I am a very impatient person.
The 20 week scan is such a milestone for us. I remember the excitement of discovering we were having our daughter and then our son. First time around, we went out and bought some tiny pink trainers.
Second time we got the same pair in blue. Perhaps this time we will get yellow? I hope that this 20 week scan will bring us the same amazing news as the other times: that our baby is healthy, growing well and looking normal. I hope, I hope, I hope.
This pregnancy has been a little plagued with doubts for me. Having not planned on another child quite so soon, coming to terms with the fact that someone had different plans has taken a little getting used to. On top of that, I never had chance to sort out my emotional baggage from last time.
So the 20 week scan is also a little scary for me. Deep down, I know it will be fine, but something is nagging at me like a tiny hand pulling on my sleeve, vying for attention. Maybe this time it won’t be third time lucky?
I’m trying my best to be level-headed, but like I said- those hormones don’t always keep me thinking straight like a sane person. All I can do is wait, with excitement and fear. So that’s what I shall do.
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